ok so this xanga thing is getting to be like a once a month thing anymore. Bcuz the last time i wrote was paul n i's 8month and today is our 9th, so anyway,  im doin good, cheerleading sucks right now im so ready for this season to be over and have my friends on the squad. i dont know how much im gunna miss this squad, i thought i totaly would but i doubt now. anyway, schools good, grades are good, planning on doing track n field this spring, thats cool. Turnabouts right around the corner im kinda excited aboutt that....

Hey, my week was better....but for such a short week i swear it felt like a lifetime. I got an A on my chemistry test & got to fly at the girls bball game. Justine was the captain who made it up. I'm crazy about her she's probibly my favorite senior. I'm genuinly going to miss her. Umm the wrestling match was fun too. It was the last home game so it was the senior game, me n renee got to hand the flowers out the the seniors parents. that was a sweet suprise. um so then yesterday paul n i hung out. things are a little better but there still seems to be somehting wierd between us right now. Like we're both so defencive twards eachother it hurts the other one and so it gets worse. which is horrible because there werent many times we've needed eachother more. anyway, im sure it will work itself out. Im gunna go-later

So this weekend was alright. Paul & i were fighting a lot. See, we have jealously issues that lead to ditching our friends and all this stuff came to a head. I think its pretty well resolved though now. I really hate fights. especialy when they were as stupid as these were. But anyway, yea so i need a job...cuz i want money. because im going into shopping withdrawl. yea. oh i broke my cell this weekend too. that sucked. hopefuly can get a new one soon. well im out-

love,

jewlia

Man, today was rough....i dont know what it is i am just a ball of chaos recently. Stuff isnt bad persay, but i feel like things are spinning out of control and i cant do all that much about it. Plus im still battleing this stupid cold. I'm sorried about my grades. I have to be able to show my mom a good report card, and im trying and i dont know whats wrong. I think i need to change my spanish teacher, i just hate mrs.whitehall so much. Paul is a mess right now, and i mean he is everything to me....& its breaking my heart seeing him like he is. Cheerleading is still good, you know, i talked to jessica barstow today. I like her, i dont know i've ever really talked to her much and shes sweet as can be. I just i need something. Something is missing, something is upsetting me. I need to figure it out....

Love,

Jewlia

Man, you know its been a long time since you've written when i recently had my 8 month and my last entry was the day after me 6th lol Things are goin good...same old. Lets see, my new schedual could be better but its cool. I'm really busy with cheerleading right now. I love this right now. Basketball games left and right...we're doing state at the pep assembly Feb 10th....and tryouts are right around the corner. I'm so excited for the new squad...dispite all the doubts I know it will be amazing. I cant wait to help the jv girls learn all the incredible stuff i got to learn this year, and catch up on everything i know i missed not being with them too. Kidnapping, and camp, it's going to be a blast. Turn-about is Feb 25th and i need to start looking around for an outfit. But this weekend was saweet. Friday paul n i went out to deavers & i had a game, and we won, drug paul to the late show of Tristan & Isoldle, we went back to my house and fell asleep...his mom came bellowing at like 2am pissed cuz he was out so late. I wish she would just get over it and let him stay the night. It would save everyone a lot of trouble. So saturday this big thing exploded about how fucking garrett got all pissed cuz i told ryan i thought it was retarded they started hanging out, and called and like cussed me out becuase "im taking people away from him" I'm sorry but suck it up baby, if people dont spend enough time with u because they r with me i.e. paul, its his responcibility to maintain his relationships....not mine. if ur feeling niglected dont look at me. And if you expect me to not tell friends i've had for like 4 years what i think of new people they are hanging around um well think again. Anyway, Everyone came over after me ryan n paul all went to Las Fuentes, Oh and we went to good will and got a bday present for reba lol. A rainbow dress n a new weed box. lol  We partied, watched wedding crashers, played ddr like there was no tomorrow. Reba Mark n Jessica spent the night. The next morning i woke up paul at like 10am by knocking on his window and we went n got mcdonalds. Came home, more ddr, ryan made up a ramon noodle breakfast too, which was super good, but filling....um paul n me took a nap while everyone else played games on the computers. Dani smith came by and we went to my choir concert, it was boooorring but oh well i think it meant a lot to mr.k we went. So we all went to wing-stop after and i brought some extra home to paul. He came over and after he went home jake rappa n randy n tommy came by. after they were over for a  bit we went to qt n they headed home. I had taken this relaxing pill and man did i sleep good. Dani n Reba spent the night n we all slep till like 3 today. Paul came over n we watched 24....and now im catchin u up! lol good catchin up!

Love,

Jewlia